Viper “What’s that supposed to mean?! You’ve been snooping haven’t you?!” Viper grips the lighter, her hands shaking as her anger finally caught up to her. “‘Learned’? You’ve been digging into my life! Ya have, haven’t ya?! Don’t try an’ lie!”
Ouch.
“… I find no use to lie, really. Yeah. I did. Because I was so frustrated at not understanding you, and you didn’t. Want to tell me. But I don’t know everything.”
That said, yeah, that was an ass move of him. But… Could he say that he didn’t look into her crimes or would she not believe him and he’d dig his own grave further?
Viper “Damn f-ckin’ right ya are th’ one in th’ wrong! An’ don’t try’n make it sound like Su-chan is th’one t’blame for th’ misunderstandin’!” Viper was so… protective of them, now. The rage twisted her stomach as she… well, thinking on it later and rationally, she’ll be able to realise she’s definitely misunderstanding, but the blind rage was too overpowering right now. The way she says it has like the same vibes as the ’Keep my wife’s name out ya damn mouth’ clip.
“I am not blaming them, I’m simply explaining how I heard it. I don’t want to implicate them in our issue at all either. It’s not between them, you and me. It’s between you and me.”
To be frank, his heartrate is raising, but… He’s bracing. For the worst.
Viper “Stop… actin’ like ya damn care ’bout me. ’Cause ya don’t! If ya did, ya wouldn’t’a snooped inta my life, ya wouldn’t’a treated me like I’m some active f-ckin’ danger ta ya wellbein’!”
“… You really… Didn’t make it easy for me to trust you for a long time. And I… Understand if you don’t trust me at all. Really. I’m not… I know you’re mad at me and you have every right to be.”
Viper “I’m gonna be f-ckin’ watchin’ how ya treat him too, Mayer. Real f-ckin’ closely. If ya even slightly push him too far, I’ll f-ckin’ kick ya ass.” There’s a moment of concern after she says it. She worries for Abel. He’s so like her, he really is, and she needs to protect him from Vinzent being able to treat him the same way he treated her. If there was even a hair wrong on his pretty orange little head, she’d be on the war path, that much was clear.
“…”
Isn’t this what he was worried about? To fuck up this badly? And… Honestly, the more she spoke, the more the guilt was eating him away. Something was welling up. His face felt hot…
Viper “Why the f-ck should I trust ya? Why, when you’ve made me feel so constantly unsafe just being around ya? How do I know you’re not just goin’ to say whatever ya want.”
“…” Something stifling on his face.
“… I… I…” How was he going to say the same thing to her? When she admitted to him that she considered doing something with his tape? It’s not fair. It’s not fair when she kept doing things that frustrated him to the point of reaching this stage. It’s not fair that he felt like he couldn’t speak up because he was too scared. He’s a coward until the end, huh?
“W… What do you want me to do then?”
By then, it was hard to contain his tears.
Less out of fear, and more of guilt, for not being brave enough.
For escaping from his problems. Because he didn’t want to deal with it.
For being a hypocrite.
…
People are gonna abandon him in the short time, aren’t they? He’s going to end up alone, isn’t he?
Maybe… Maybe he was right.
The day that would come where he’d ruin everything because of how he is, and there won’t be any chance to fix it at all. People will leave him because he isn’t worth their time. Maybe. Maybe he didn’t…
Maybe he didn’t deserve anything.
Because he was a full-on coward first, and an asshole second.
There’s nothing nice to say about himself, he knows.
Really.
