Abel watched Vinzent leave for a little before temporarily stashing the letter to grab a new dress shirt. Oh how lovely having a clean one will be…
… he’s not going to be able to ask Viper to hit the bathroom button. Ugh.
He tucks it into his bag and finally opens the letter. The drawings… they’re strange for him. He finds himself double checking traits of his- like he forgot about them. It’s strange… to see a drawing of himself. He ends up tucking it into his bag and looking at the letter.
Vinzent Mayer I’m sorry for saying things that shouldn’t have been said.
I’m sorry for hurting you.
I don’t even have an excuse.
I’ll be the first to admit that I said these words and I regret it so much. You’re the one I’ve talked to the most out of everyone here. And I still fucked it all up.
… woof. Vinzent really took it hard huh? He… jeez he’s really.
Vinzent… maybe Abel wishes he hadn’t said it but he was so… worked up. He shouldn’t have… he always realizes he’s being so dramatic once it’s too Late.
He always ends up regretting what he does.
Vinzent Mayer There’s so much I want to do with you. Keep living, having days full of laughter or just plain happiness. Even crying together or just having a peaceful moment in silence, it never feels lonely when you’re around.
Temporarily he puts the letter down as he processes that. This feels so… he’s being forgiven too easily again isn’t he. Ugh. It takes him a moment to get back into the letter
He has to put it back down. That one’s too much for a moment. He ends up taking a little to pick through suit pants and find something in his size in brown. It’s harder to find his preferred shade but he finds it. Luckily.
… back in.
Back down! That one’s hard to process because. Really…
It’s not said to him often, hell he’s pretty sure his Mother Never said it to him- and perhaps he thinks it’s too soon- but he can… he can just…
It’s something to… deal with.
Haha. Woof. He’s working through this. Slowly. Surely. It’s… going to take a little to process and decide what he wants to do.
He’s. He’s upset Vinzent is taking so much of the responsibility. He isn’t holding Abel accountable for Any of his bs- and maybe that’s because he didn’t really do most of it to Vinzent but he still… he still feels…
Ugh. He hates. Feeling. And thinking. And. He wishes he could work right now.
Regardless he does need to deal with this. With how he feels. He’s. Hesitant. That shoe has to drop right? One day.
He could call everything quits here and he doesn’t have to have it hurt worse later. But.
Vinzent doesn’t want to be alone either.
…
He picks himself a jacket and a new sweater and tucks both into his bag with a few extra socks and such. he takes a little longer to think while picking out his idea for a casual outfit- and then he decides… perhaps he should. Maybe speak to Vinzent. It has been a while overall- he took his time doing things in there- but. Now.
… at the very least. Someone to be amicable with… would be nice. He’s slowing things down but he’s not Fully cutting Vinzent off. He is stubborn. Exceptionally so. He’s decided he’s better off more secluded- but. He’s tired of hurting people.
Maybe. He’ll feel a little better at Least.
Or maybe he won’t find Vinzent again. Whatever God decides.